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Better keep looking?

I think I must have some kind of love addiction or something. I've been obsessing over guys since I was 13 years old. Is there an end to this madness?

I feel so pathetic and insignificant. Why do I feel this way? I'm 31 years old, I should be solid? I am so done with men I can't have. I have a problem and I know it needs to be dealt with.

I have played it both ways. I've been a good girl, I've been a slut....still ended up with shit. What gives?

People don't change. Not really. I am still asking myself the same questions I was when I was in high school. Am I a fool to believe that I could ever find someone to love me just for me and nothing else?

I am so sick and tired of waiting for Mr. Right. I've been living in a dream world.

Maybe I'm just destined to be alone and that makes me so sad. I know I am a good person and I know I have a lot to give...but what the fuck does it matter if I have no one to share it with?

I am sorry. bad day. bad week. bad year.....bad years...

I would blame it on the alcohol, but I'm not drinking. At least I still have my sense of humor.... right?

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ghostworld00
May. 24th, 2009 05:38 pm (UTC)
"I am so sick and tired of waiting for Mr. Right. I've been living in a dream world."

You and me both, babe. I am 34. I am trying to date online. Sometimes it feels like I should just be banging my head against the wall. The outcome is about the same but the head banging involves less money and time.
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